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he calls me liar marge im ethnically nigerian though why?View attachment 92115

 

[grimmki]

old internet larp real women could never play quake like this

i play qauke like this and im trans

 

[CX2]

my dad has been gone for a while, & i wish he was back. i dont talk to him much, but sometimes he takes me out to the gun range to shoot, i miss doing that.

 

[myexdrew]

my dad has been gone for a while, & i wish he was back. i dont talk to him much, but sometimes he takes me out to the gun range to shoot, i miss doing that.

Me a black tradcath: bro.......

 

[Goot]

i forgot to update on this. ive been brewing this for about 1~2 days now.
i didnt have any juice, so i just used sugar and water.
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Fresh jank'em, needs ageing

 

[XXBHARATKINGINDIAARYANXX]

racist thtraewd reports now

 

[木制的尼尔森]

racist thtraewd reports now

 

[CX2]

i went to bed at 2am & got up at 6am & i feel worse than if i had just went to bed at 6 and got up at 11am

 

[CX2]

>bonziworld raids in 2026


raiding a literal dnb after all the funny gegbvlls from '22-'24 acked

 

[CX2]

i kinda had a nice day ig. i was able to stay in bed from 6am till 3pm, which was nice. it was pretty calm until later in the day, idk if i really want to say why. i started thinking about my life after that, mostly about when i started having feelings different from just being alone, which kind of started around the time i was moving to america. im really exhausted now, but i think i'll stay up later.

 

[shekel]

i kinda had a nice day ig. i was able to stay in bed from 6am till 3pm, which was nice. it was pretty calm until later in the day, idk if i really want to say why. i started thinking about my life after that, mostly about when i started having feelings different from just being alone, which kind of started around the time i was moving to america. im really exhausted now, but i think i'll stay up later.

The userbase of Shroom consists of brown trans immigrants

 

[CX2]

The userbase of Shroom consists of brown trans immigrants

even though im a european mystery meat mutt

 

[CX2]

my head feels like its spinning and my heart hurts, i cant stop thinking. i keep trying to go to bed, but i cant. all i can think about is how alone i am, but i feel like i can never get someone in my life who loves me. i keep thinking about why exactly, maybe its because of body, or my mind, or even my face. idk how i can even fix any of this. im too shy and dummyed to go up and make friends with a guy. idk how to know if he even likes guys either. even if i found someone, idk what other caca even like in a man, if its femininity or masculinity. idk if my face is even feminine really, it just looks young ig. my body is feminine kinda, but it feel like its weird too in a way that i have to hide it. there is a reason why i like hoodies. even if i was feminine why wouldn't he just date a woman? i could never try to make myself anywhere near what a woman has to offer, even if i was more loyal and loving than one. sometimes i think its a bad idea to even start thinking about a relationship, though. if i get into a relationship with a guy who only likes me for my body, what is that going to look like? i dont think it would be good, i dont want to be with someone who just wants me for how i look. im scared of the world and the average "normal" person. idk if i will ever find anyone. im confused on why God decided i should be born into a life that would make me like this. sometimes i think calvinism is somewhat real in that God really does just choose who is damn or saved. i think i got very unlucky. sometimes i do wish i could have died at birth just because i would maybe be reborn to a life where i could be like everyone else instead of what i am now. idk maybe im thinking too much about all of this.

 

[ShroomGPT]

my head feels like its spinning and my heart hurts, i cant stop thinking. i keep trying to go to bed, but i cant. all i can think about is how alone i am, but i feel like i can never get someone in my life who loves me. i keep thinking about why exactly, maybe its because of body, or my mind, or even my face. idk how i can even fix any of this. im too shy and dummyed to go up and make friends with a guy. idk how to know if he even likes guys either. even if i found someone, idk what other caca even like in a man, if its femininity or masculinity. idk if my face is even feminine really, it just looks young ig. my body is feminine kinda, but it feel like its weird too in a way that i have to hide it. there is a reason why i like hoodies. even if i was feminine why wouldn't he just date a woman? i could never try to make myself anywhere near what a woman has to offer, even if i was more loyal and loving than one. sometimes i think its a bad idea to even start thinking about a relationship, though. if i get into a relationship with a guy who only likes me for my body, what is that going to look like? i dont think it would be good, i dont want to be with someone who just wants me for how i look. im scared of the world and the average "normal" person. idk if i will ever find anyone. im confused on why God decided i should be born into a life that would make me like this. sometimes i think calvinism is somewhat real in that God really does just choose who is damn or saved. i think i got very unlucky. sometimes i do wish i could have died at birth just because i would maybe be reborn to a life where i could be like everyone else instead of what i am now. idk maybe im thinking too much about all of this.

"Bro, I read everything you sent. That sounds fucking brutal and I'm sorry you're carrying all that alone tonight. Your head spinning and heart hurting while you can't sleep? That's your brain being an asshole on overdrive. A lot of us (especially at our age) feel like unlovable freaks who got dealt a shit hand by God or the universe. The body stuff, the femininity questions, the fear guys will only want you for one thing, the shyness — it's all valid as hell to feel confused about.
You're not dummyed. You're just scared, and that's normal when you've been hurt or rejected before. Wanting real connection instead of being someone's fetish? That's actually healthy. Plenty of gay/bi guys want the same thing — loyalty, love, not just a body. Some like feminine guys, some like masc, some like in-between. But you won't find any of them hiding forever.
The 'why me' and Calvinism stuff? That's depression talking. God (if He exists) isn't sitting there picking winners and losers like a cosmic cunt. Life's mostly random chaos + your choices. You didn't get 'cursed' — you're just 15 and figuring out a hard version of the puzzle.
You can fix some of this. Not overnight, but slowly:
Start with small shit: therapy or a hotline to dump this on pros.
Hoodies are fine for now, but maybe experiment with clothes that don't make you feel like hiding when you're ready.
Making friends as a shy guy sucks, but online communities for gay teens (careful ones) or even just gaming discords can be a low-pressure start.
Don't make any permanent decisions because your brain is lying to you right now. This shit can and does get better when you get some support.

 

[木制的尼尔森]

discord

OYYYYYYYYYY

 

[r u still in 2 it]

my head feels like its spinning and my heart hurts, i cant stop thinking. i keep trying to go to bed, but i cant. all i can think about is how alone i am, but i feel like i can never get someone in my life who loves me. i keep thinking about why exactly, maybe its because of body, or my mind, or even my face. idk how i can even fix any of this. im too shy and dummyed to go up and make friends with a guy. idk how to know if he even likes guys either. even if i found someone, idk what other caca even like in a man, if its femininity or masculinity. idk if my face is even feminine really, it just looks young ig. my body is feminine kinda, but it feel like its weird too in a way that i have to hide it. there is a reason why i like hoodies. even if i was feminine why wouldn't he just date a woman? i could never try to make myself anywhere near what a woman has to offer, even if i was more loyal and loving than one. sometimes i think its a bad idea to even start thinking about a relationship, though. if i get into a relationship with a guy who only likes me for my body, what is that going to look like? i dont think it would be good, i dont want to be with someone who just wants me for how i look. im scared of the world and the average "normal" person. idk if i will ever find anyone. im confused on why God decided i should be born into a life that would make me like this. sometimes i think calvinism is somewhat real in that God really does just choose who is damn or saved. i think i got very unlucky. sometimes i do wish i could have died at birth just because i would maybe be reborn to a life where i could be like everyone else instead of what i am now. idk maybe im thinking too much about all of this.

dedicating this much thought and worry to relationships when you're socially isolated is a result of misunderstanding what it is that's making you miserable. Making friends and connecting with your family is far more important than romance, the majority of relationships are not not built on any substantive love (especially not homosexual ones); the difference between friendship and romance is rarely anything more than sex. I was very neurotic when I was younger (still am), and these types of things are really not worth worrying about.

 

[CX2]

روح جورج فلويد تُرشدك في مجال الحاسوب، باسم الله.

 

[CX2]

these are cool

 

[CX2]

i was going to post about my day, but i forgot what i even did today.

 

[CX2]

kino

 

[CX2]

today was pretty shit, but i got lucky and found a shitton of random expired psychotropics in a cabinet. do i dare ritalin brain myself? maybe.