New entry in the ‘log
I keep going to random dumb doctors for random dumb shit. when im not suffering from one condition, my body magically creates another and i dont know why. Tomorrow i have 3 doctors appointments, one of them barely counts as a doctor bcs its a PSYCHOZOGTHERAPIST, and im gonna ask if i can lower my dosage of CBZ (i take for severe social anxiety apparently), and tell her that her shitoko of me having bad blood circulation in my brain due to underdevelopments in my body are false, i got a ct scan recently and I was told that my neck area swells, because of how fast i grew at 12-14 years old, the rest of my body suffered from it and that causes bad blood circulation and pain. I also gotta visit the dermatologist, for some reason my eyelids swell and the skin around my eyes is severely sensitive and peels off like as if ive been smearing them with acid or something, eye doctor said its a skin issue so idk what theyll do there, i have the same issue on an area on my neck but i ignore that. Then i gotta go to the polyclinic for a routine check after i got a vaccine because my immune system is dummyed and they gotta make sure no complications even doe I can literally tell myself that im fine. Next week im getting more botox injected into my jaw, not really for cosmetic reasons, its because i grit my teeth and those muscles are really fucking tense. Doe, my mom keeps emphasizing that my face will look slimmer after the 2nd time. This shit just isnt fun! On the bright side im now talking more to [an online female friend] whom im also drawing some art for yay!! Makes my day better talking to her since i cant always be in the company of my boyfriends friends, i usually feel singled out or like i dont belong bcs uhhhh bcs idk i dont understand how a dude farting for 10 minutes is hilarious for example [inconsolable] But yea!!! Im glad i use this for socialization as well, since i never really text/call my irl friends, we’ve got nothing to talk about